A brave Christmas…..

Merry Christmas in Heaven Gia-Bia.

Mama wants you here.

It is not okay.

But, we are Keeping your brave heartbeat so close to our own heartbeats sweet baby💙🦋

You keep us brave

. It’s not the same without you here to squeal and jump up and down over your newest dolly or plush lovie💔😢.

You are fiercely remembered and missed. Pain and Joy colliding in a mess of a Mighty Christmas of HOPE. We love you so much. I know you love your kitty in your stocking that Santa brought you. Tolly said she’d keep it safe for you. 💕

 

 

 

Christmas at my sister’s house was special and hard for all of us as an extended family. Gianna’s void was deeply felt as we all knew it would be…she was always a big sparkly presence with all her joyous squeals when she would open her gifts!!!😭…so this year was a lot quieter😢. But we did it. …we walked the hard all together and I’m so thankful for how we were held so fiercely close and literally the burden of pain was shared by all of us in a tangible way as Gianna was remembered and ached for by everyone…. We shared many tears, memories and laughter and heartache and it was in those honest and raw shared moments of grief and grace that our Gianna felt the closest and our hearts felt most comforted. I’m so thankful for how God carries and carried us and for the surprise pockets of joy and light in the darkness.

 

He is near. ….as we bravely surrender forward in pain.

 

 

One of the most special gifts was our “🌟 Gianna’s Starlight🌟“. My sister’s family named a star in Gianna’s honor😭😍😍🌠🌠. How beautiful is that!? We all wept and smiled because “of course she should absolutely have her very own star!!! That’s so Gia!!!!” 💕💕💕💫✨

 

 

Such a gift and symbol of LIGHT to us….As our Gianna is a starlight in our life forever.
So grateful for the light that shines in the night. Shine forever baby girl!!

I will never EVER be okay with you gone, but I will never EVER stop honoring your beauiful life or not trying to shine the light in your beautiful memory forever,  You are not here now, but each day I get closer to my forever with you……

that keeps me walking forward in this hardest surrender of all.

We love you forever baby girl. You will always be our greatest gift that awaits us in eternity…

You keep our hearts deeply anchored to heaven.  Earth is not our home.

 

We are Being brave…you showed us how.