The smile is real. But a smile is a battle. A victory. When I smile there’s a wrestling behind those eyes. It’s a battle for the heart to take courage and believe the promises that my mind knows are true. It’s a “clinging to truth”. A pressing into my heavenly daddy’s heart which I trust... Continue Reading →

Gianna Lilyfaith , it's been three months of "broken" for us. How can that be???? Three months of lamenting to our Jesus. Three months of an empty hole. Three months since we had to tearfully kiss you goodbye and all our hearts tragically crushed together in a storm of devastation, yet yours ....your broken heart... Continue Reading →

Love notes to heaven.... There's always a butterfly in Gianna's garden.     Always light. Always color. Always beauty. Always fairies. Always birds.         Always something magical and heavenly happening.   We know she's close.   We know Jesus is close.   We feel heaven touch us on that anointed ground. We... Continue Reading →

20 years ago we started our journey of forever together and we also started dreaming together. We started dreaming about our 20th year anniversary. Dreaming together of touring beautiful Italy and visiting Brian's roots and his Italian heritage. Never mind the whole money factor, we just enjoyed dreaming BIG together. God's dreams are bigger. We... Continue Reading →

Spring is the last season my Gianna walked this earth. I feel like today I stand on a bridge that I am being forced to cross. When I turn around, I see that early season of Spring with her so alive. Those cold days when we felt warmer days would never come. We chased joy,... Continue Reading →

(originally written April 2018) We are now camping out in the place where the deepest of heartbreak collides with a supernatural hope. The LORD promises to draw near to the broken hearted. And here we are....utterly broken...and experiencing that reality so tangibly. He’s so close. We’re hurting so deep. We’re in the wilderness, and even... Continue Reading →

I think it is important to share on Father's Day what a True Father's Heart looks like. It is not often you get to hear this incredible man's heart. It is one in a million. His  heart for his children is a pure reflection of our Heavenly Daddy's relentless love for all of us. His... Continue Reading →

 .....oh the giggles that would explode as we compared our reactions!! "Mommy, it is SO SO delicious and sweet and so wonderful!!!!" (As her eyes lit up with such delight!) "Gianna!!!, no no! its so completely sour and terrible, yuck, ewwwwww!!!" (scrunching my face up  with a look of disgust!)  “NO, mommy....it is amazing! Trust... Continue Reading →

People say to just focus on the moment now. "Grace for the moment. Breathe….breathe." They are right. Kind of…. Well  .....its super freakin’ hard . Flashbacks can hurt deeply but At least she still lives in the flashbacks….flash-forwards hurt more because we have to imagine her not in the future. The pain is so heavy... Continue Reading →

We are walking the great unknown a wilderness that makes us feel abandoned at times despite all the head knowledge and verses put before us. We lament.  We scream. We cry. We bang on our Daddy’s chest. There is always someone breaking down in this house.  Nights are very very hard. Gianna had such a... Continue Reading →