Today is National Wear Red Day for CHD awareness This was one of our special fundraiser t-shirts from when we were bringing our Gianna home 5 years ago with a 1/2 heart. 😢❤️🇨🇳 ...   We miss our beautiful brave heart warrior so very much. 😭 ...we miss fighting for her...we miss her giggles and... Continue Reading →

It is almost February and my heart bleeds out. My heart is freshly ripped open.....again and again as I walk into a new month that holds many memories of pure JOY that I ache to have back.... I ache for how it was. all I keep thinking is: "This is not how it was supposed... Continue Reading →

3 days ago I had to wake up and put my feet on the floor and face the hardest day of our lives since we had to give our Gia back to Jesus 263 days ago. I knew Christmas had to come.  I knew New Year's would probably have to come too. But, I never... Continue Reading →

Sharing this documented treasure. I started a project one year ago. One that was supposed to last all 12 months but ended up just being the first three. It's One second a day. January 1, 2018 - March 27, 2018. I will forever treasure and ache deeply for these memories of Gianna's last three months... Continue Reading →

Every year we bang pots and pans, it was her favorite. She would scream at the top of her squeaky voice .... "HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!!!!!!" SHE IS THE CUTEST NEW YEAR'S CELEBRATOR EVER!!!             ...except that one horrible terrifying New Year's Eve  that she nearly died. Three years ago....on... Continue Reading →

Merry Christmas in Heaven Gia-Bia. Mama wants you here. It is not okay. But, we are Keeping your brave heartbeat so close to our own heartbeats sweet baby💙🦋 You keep us brave . It's not the same without you here to squeal and jump up and down over your newest dolly or plush lovie💔😢. You... Continue Reading →

  8 months. That's 243 days since I felt her heart beat against mine. I hate that I can't tangibly feel her beautiful pounding heart muscle anymore with my hands or my chest or my cheek. We all just loved pressing our faces deeply into her brave scars that traced the handiwork of our mighty... Continue Reading →

Today is so special!!!! The anniversary of a miracle!   7 years ago, in a huge civil affairs office in Southern China, we were handed the most beautiful treasure in the whole wide world. That room suddenly became a labor and delivery room and every emotion was experienced in that sacred precious encounter. When they... Continue Reading →

Mama misses you my sweet lovie....so very much. Some days I can get my grief legs under me.... But some days all I can do is crawl. Some days I can breathe and I feel God's light and His promises so close to my heart. But some days, I'm literally choking on my grief. I... Continue Reading →

Our tree of HOPE🦋. We decorated our tree in honor of our brave 🦋Gia-Bia🦋 who hung her ❤️brave heart💔 every year in praise for our God of miracles! I felt her so close as we filled our tree with her favorite color. I know she’s loving her tree from heaven😍😢. ....im so thankful that last... Continue Reading →