We made it through.... only by the grace and strength of God, by the lifeline of the prayers of many, we made it through the most brutal weeks of our lives.  As a family we carried each other forward, while letting God carry all our broken hearts.... while always carrying  our baby.... limping forward together,... Continue Reading →

I feel like we live in a forever Saturday.... The space between Dark Good Friday and Easter Sunday.  Wailing at the grave, shaking my fist at heaven, aching to hold my baby....cursing death, Satan and this broken world....waiting...waiting for the promise, the rescue, the Reunion....the coming down of HEAVEN. Waiting for All Things New.  Groaning...and... Continue Reading →

I am exhausted from crying for help;     my throat is parched. My eyes are swollen with weeping,     waiting for my God to help me. Psalm 69:3   I hate that it will be one year soon.   The night closes in like never before. The depths of darkness threaten to swallow us whole this week. The... Continue Reading →

10 months. 10 months is too long to go without your cuddles and kisses. Every day the ache is wider and the pain is heavier and the sorrow is deeper. Yet every day the HOPE grows too. Every day is a day closer to holding you again. Gianna Lilyfaith, it's been 10 months of "broken"... Continue Reading →

Today is National Wear Red Day for CHD awareness This was one of our special fundraiser t-shirts from when we were bringing our Gianna home 5 years ago with a 1/2 heart. 😢❤️🇨🇳 ...   We miss our beautiful brave heart warrior so very much. 😭 ...we miss fighting for her...we miss her giggles and... Continue Reading →

It is almost February and my heart bleeds out. My heart is freshly ripped open.....again and again as I walk into a new month that holds many memories of pure JOY that I ache to have back.... I ache for how it was. all I keep thinking is: "This is not how it was supposed... Continue Reading →

3 days ago I had to wake up and put my feet on the floor and face the hardest day of our lives since we had to give our Gia back to Jesus 263 days ago. I knew Christmas had to come.  I knew New Year's would probably have to come too. But, I never... Continue Reading →

Sharing this documented treasure. I started a project one year ago. One that was supposed to last all 12 months but ended up just being the first three. It's One second a day. January 1, 2018 - March 27, 2018. I will forever treasure and ache deeply for these memories of Gianna's last three months... Continue Reading →

Every year we bang pots and pans, it was her favorite. She would scream at the top of her squeaky voice .... "HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone!!!!!!!!" SHE IS THE CUTEST NEW YEAR'S CELEBRATOR EVER!!!             ...except that one horrible terrifying New Year's Eve  that she nearly died. Three years ago....on... Continue Reading →

Merry Christmas in Heaven Gia-Bia. Mama wants you here. It is not okay. But, we are Keeping your brave heartbeat so close to our own heartbeats sweet baby💙🦋 You keep us brave . It's not the same without you here to squeal and jump up and down over your newest dolly or plush lovie💔😢. You... Continue Reading →