8 months. That's 243 days since I felt her heart beat against mine. I hate that I can't tangibly feel her beautiful pounding heart muscle anymore with my hands or my chest or my cheek. We all just loved pressing our faces deeply into her brave scars that traced the handiwork of our mighty... Continue Reading →

Today is so special!!!! The anniversary of a miracle!   7 years ago, in a huge civil affairs office in Southern China, we were handed the most beautiful treasure in the whole wide world. That room suddenly became a labor and delivery room and every emotion was experienced in that sacred precious encounter. When they... Continue Reading →

Mama misses you my sweet lovie....so very much. Some days I can get my grief legs under me.... But some days all I can do is crawl. Some days I can breathe and I feel God's light and His promises so close to my heart. But some days, I'm literally choking on my grief. I... Continue Reading →

Our tree of HOPE🦋. We decorated our tree in honor of our brave 🦋Gia-Bia🦋 who hung her ❤️brave heart💔 every year in praise for our God of miracles! I felt her so close as we filled our tree with her favorite color. I know she’s loving her tree from heaven😍😢. ....im so thankful that last... Continue Reading →

Look at us. Such naive Babies.... completely thinking we were complete. How much we thought we knew our future. ....I am so thankful that God saved us from this "normal safe life" that’s pictured in this photo. ....that sweet smaller Family has absolutely no idea what’s coming….. Thinking this is all there is ...they have... Continue Reading →

I want to thank everyone who prayed for my family especially yesterday. during Thanksgiving... Holidays hurt so deeply...and Gianna's void is so loud 🙁  But, Yesterday was a special time with family and I felt God's grace carrying all of us. .... it was hard ...so hard....But God came close within the pain and there... Continue Reading →

4 years ago today ....I remember sitting by her hospital bed so carefully making sure each tiny little toe received their share of pink nail polish goodness. As I painted those dainty little toes and glared at her stats on the monitors above, I was somberly reflecting on the miracle of her 1/2 broken heart made... Continue Reading →

For those who groan with a grief that is just not translated with human language or comforted with human words or thoughts...this post is for you... For those who fiercely walk close to the broken-hearted and worry and wonder if light will ever come back to them....this post is for you.... For those who bravely... Continue Reading →

He fell prostrate face down to his knees, absolutely broken and poured out. Nothing left to offer but a wrecked spirit of emptiness after weeks of wrestling. Anguished tears and sweat filled his cupped hands that covered his distressed and wrenched face. Weeks of struggling with fear all came down to this very holy moment... Continue Reading →

This week marks six months of a journey as a family through deep mourning and suffering that we have never  known before. Yet, these labor-pains of grief have birthed a deep seated Joy that has revealed a GOD who aggressively pursues and cradles our broken hearts in the darkest of seasons. I am not sure... Continue Reading →