Remembering the miracle and gift of homeschooling her:
September just hurts.
I knew it would and it always does this side of DEEP LOSS.
I tried to make August last as long as I could and avoid the tsunami of feelings.
But I knew the train was coming and there was nothing I could do about it. The pain must be felt to move forward.
This season …well, It’s right up there with holidays and birthdays for my grieving mama heart.
My heart aches over the empty chair at the school table. The box not filled with crayons and the backpack not bought.
But deep Sorrow is forever held by overwhelming gratefulness.
I’m So thankful for the memories that the old school table and chair and my aching heart will hold forever because of the gift and honor to have homeschooled my baby girl while she walked earth.
It was too brief.
It should have been longer.
I’ll never understand the story from this side of glory.
But, what I do know is that every day was captured to the fullest because I got to see all her wonder and joy of learning and growing and bonding with her siblings over arts, crafts, science experiments, memory work, silly songs, storybooks, puppet shows, phonics poems, bible reading and unifix cubes.
It was pure magic.
I’m thankful we had the gift to slow down the little time we had on earth together by staying home and not running on a hamster wheel.
Homeschooling is a gift to my heart forever that’s never, ever lost on me …no matter how hard the days can be. These moments are Memories that are engraved forever on my soul and that carry me forward to the day I’m holding her again.
Life is a vapor.
Savor and capture every precious moment no matter how big the messes or how wild the chaos or how heavy the weariness in the long days when confidence wains in your ability to teach.
Because your presence together is everything.
It’s all holy. It’s all sacred….all an extravagant gift.
*Because Presence Trumps Perfection*
You’re time together is an investment straight into eternity.
I’d give anything for one more moment with her.
I am beyond thankful for the gift we had to slow the brief time we had. It wasn’t perfect…homeschooling is not a perfect choice…. but our presence together was a gift of perfect goodness that God knew I would need to hold onto when my baby was no longer on earth.
Not ever long enough… time is not ever enough.
But I know Eternity awaits us.
We miss you, GiaBia.
I can only imagine the stars and galaxies your eyes get to see now. But I sure do miss teaching you all about those creation wonders from down here on earth together.
But You’re teaching us now, baby girl. Keep shining on us. ✨ 💫 🌙 #livegiagrowforever #homeschoolingisagift
